Thursday, August 23, 2012

Feeling so down

 Hello fellow bloggers. Lately my creative mood hasn't been on the brightest level; I've been feeling really down ever since my best friend stopped talking to me, finally giving me an answer to why as of two weeks ago.

This news has become a very hard impact on my creative spirit, resulting in a mood to make darker pictures expressing internal emotions. It's not that I haven't been creating, I just haven't had much motivation to create anything bright and happy, or keep journal records as often. 

To relieve pressure, and still express myself, I've managed to make two digital images in the past three days, and also a poem expressing my feelings.

In the above picture, the darkened figure is crying from memories that have slowly been lost. All the sparkling strands flowing from her head to hand, represent the beautiful memories of past happiness, leaving her mind. As she watches them fade into the air, she cries, wishing that the happiness she knew still existed....but alas, all is gone. 

I made this image just today, expressing my feelings of hollowness and lack of desire. The hollow heart shaped hole in the woman's chest represents the lack of desire, love, hope, and passion. A very simplistic image that's purely for expressing a mood.

Both images represent my feelings, a result of my friend being so thoughtless on my behalf. I must say that doing art, expressing yourself regardless of mood, is a great way to reach for the possibility of a brighter tomorrow.

Now as for my poem.... to help it make more sense I'll tell you why I wrote it. I was expressing my feelings towards my friends action of ditching me out of pain. You see, she stopped talking to me because it hurts for her to remember what was and no longer is; so instead of considering how hurt I've been from it too, she ran from me to save herself.

Now for the poem

Why Run?

What should one do when their heart does yearn
For what they love and knew, but can not earn?

When one remembers, and takes memory in pain
What, might I ask, does it help them gain?

To run from your memories is all you can do,
But what of the person who still thinks of you?

Do you ever question what your running has done?
Did you ever consider you'd be hurting someone?

In the end the person with memories like yours
Remembers you always, but is left with life's sores.

They understand your suffering and pain,
And while you run, they wait all the same.

But as they wait, their heart is aching,
So much in fact it's truly breaking.

On nights their soul is truly pleading
And all they want is a simple greeting,
You run from their tears and continue
Your fleeing, while the one you abandon
Is dieing and bleeding.

Is this what life has brought you to?
The choice to run and forget who you knew?

The person who loves you is dieing inside
And while they grow darker, you run and hide.

This in itself is wrong as an action
And shows in a way, that your love is a fraction

Of what your friend feels for you
But you won't turn back, no matter what they do.

For you fail to remember what pain your friend feels,
And your friend only knows that true love is what heals.

Yet you ignore your dieing friend's plea,
And continue your running to set yourself free.

Why is it then, you can not see, what you've done while running from me?
Leaving your friend in deep misery, far stronger than any stormy sea.

I shared this poem on my Deviant Art account too, so if you're interested to see it on that site, here's the link  

Also, here's a song that I've been listening to, and I feel it fits my art pieces above.

There's what's been going on in the "studio" and I hope to get back on a better track eventually. Till then happy blogging, enjoy. 

Monday, August 20, 2012

Titanium plated shell necklace

One of my newest, and favorite necklaces is this super heated Titanium shell necklace bought off E-bay. It's glowing ,rainbow metallic finish gives this piece a fantasy touch.

The frill of this natural shell makes it all the more whimsical, like you snatched it right off a mermaid's neck. 

This necklace also brings out the geekier side in me, and I feel it fits the style and color themes of my invented icon character, Pearllight....who's name is used for this blog (but that's for another post.)

Being that the shell is metallic on the surface, it changes tone depending on the light. (images above and below show the slight difference.

A close up of the shell, it mostly glows in colors of purple and blue, with tints of orange-yellow.
My favorite close up of the shell, I love the elegant metal work that surrounds the small purple stone above the main focal point.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Recycled sketch book and drawings

 During my time spent back in Ohio, I got this 97 cent recycled notebook. for being less than a dollar, I must say the paper is still pretty nice. It's pages are a pleasant cream color, with added brown leaves at the bottom. Works nicely with marker and colored pencil, the mediums I've used on every page so far.

The name of this cute booklet,"I recycle great Ideas" reminds me of what Jenny does at Jenibellie Studio  and I thought of her when getting this book.

Below are the first two pictures I did in my book, and worked on the bird (left) while I was still in Ohio. I'll be making another post, and will include a few funny pages that follow after these.
I feel that I've used this book for drawings that are associated with nature, and things I feel look better on the cream paper, while still matching the style of the book itself. A notebook for different moods is good; this one I keep in my purse with another small black one.

While I was in Ohio, I had this strong desire to draw something, and I had a higher sense of creativity...not sure why. And one day I decided to draw a bird, with an added quote bubble that fit my mood. Because I was feeling creative, I felt I was finally letting my imagination free, which led to the two pages of motivation; to let your imagination soar, be creative, and be yourself.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Perfect polka dot sunglasses case

For the longest time I've been needing a sunglasses case that could hold my large, overly bling-ish shades; and it so happens they have them out there. I thought that they only made small cases for standard sized glasses, but I guess they're now making cases for the newest trend of overly large shades. 

I'm very happy to now have this case in my that my poor set of black sunglasses are scratched and nicked up from rolling around in my overly stuffed purse. I guess the next step is to find a new set of black shades. ^_~

The case came with a free cleaning cloth, and is perfect for any large lenses you wish to stick in it. The inner case lining is a soft, tan, vellum-like material; and the outside is nice and smooth, covered with polka dots that give the case texture.

Out of all the places you can purchase these, this particular case can be found at A.C. More. 

 Hope your blogging week/crafting is going well, I may post about some unfinished projects still waiting for attention, possibly a few more fashion related posts (very likely), and be sure to stay tuned for pictures from my purse sketchbooks in the near future.

Have a great day. ^_^